Excuse Me, Do You have a Light?

“I’m ready to set the world on fire, but I can’t find the matches.”

I wrote this statement in my journal a few months ago when I was feeling all fired up and full of creative energy, but nothing was happening. It was like I was ready to move and take action, but the timing was just off, and nothing that I was doing was gaining any real traction.

In situations like this it’s easy for me to lose patience.

“Why is nothing happening?” I demanded of the Universe.

Crickets.

There is a natural flow to life. When we go with the flow, we feel good. When we resist the flow, we feel bad. It’s such a simple idea, but it’s one that I have struggled with over the years.

See, I always want to be up—up energy, up mood, up creativity, up productivity. Even though I know it’s not possible to be up all the time, I still find myself feeling like something is wrong when I’m not in that high energy state.

When things slow down or my energy is low, I fret. But the problem isn’t really with the low or slow; it’s with my lack of acceptance of what is happening. My instinct is to try harder and just keep going, but that instinct doesn’t actually serve me.

The funny thing is, I can’t even hazard a guess as to how many times this cycle has repeated itself and STILL my initial response is “oh no, why is this happening?”

Yet when I get frustrated and push or try to force things, it doesn't work. In fact, it only slows down the process even more.

My task at times like this is to do the opposite. It’s to slow down and just let things be. It’s to turn my attention to something that feels good and to focus on whatever is working rather than fixating on what isn't working.

And breathe.

I’m learning, slowly, to trust the process and respect that the timing of what I am creating or manifesting isn’t mine to control.

News flash. I am not in control.

Not that what I do doesn't matter. It does matter. And what I think and believe matters even more. But ultimately, control is just an illusion.

I am not the general manager of the Universe. No matter how much I plan or discipline myself, I can't always control the outcome.

Esther Hicks talks about a state of being she calls “the vortex”. It’s a place of perfect alignment with the flow of life. Being in the vortex is all about feeling good, accepting and allowing whatever is, and being in a state of positive expectation.

I 🧡 the vortex. It is my intention to spend as much time there as I possibly can. Which means I will continue to practice trusting the process and knowing that everything is unfolding just as it should. I don't need to get in the way. I can just enjoy the ride.